Days are moving so fast nowadays..i mean jst the other day i was 17 yrs, today am almost 22.am worried coz i dnt wonna get old.....i dnt want to imagine myself being 70 in the nxt few yrs.my real fear is that at 70 may be i will soo rich yet money wunt help me have any fun i wish for now.most likely my liver will be a baggage to me, my sight wil hav long gone hence all those beatiful women i wil not be able to sorora then and most likely by that time walking naked wil be the 'inthing'.
And i also think that most likely even if some gal wil show any interest in me...it might b hard to give her a 'standing ovation'.for sure am realy afraid.
am also imagining that in the nxt 5-10 yrs i wil be married.then i wonder to whom and how and why.
to me marriage is a war...where u sleep with the enemy. i mean society wants me to adjust my lifestyle by accommodating another human being in my life (literally)for reasons i cant understand.i start sharing my life with some other human being ati coz i need to leave descendants . to me some things can be done without necessarily sharing my good life with some1 else.
of course things like sharing of bed aint that bad an idea but it can/its being done even without marriage.
i hope i done age soo quickly and if i do i hope to outlive my fear and if i marry i get one of those pple who does nt care wot time i get home nor wot i was i was doing getting late.
but one thing am sure of is that woteva i wish for or want will not happen....and thats why am VERY AFRAID!!!!!
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